Ok, I'm freaking out a little

[millari]

My first class in three weeks is tomorrrow evening. I'm afraid, afraid, afraid of not being ready. I'm starting up a new semester and although I know what my unit's going to be about, I don't have a whole lot in place besides materials. I've gone and done the same thing I always do - built this whole thing up in my head until it seems impossible. I know this is the ADD talking, and I'm combatting it somewhat: I did manage to get a unit planned out - for my morning class, of course, which doesn't happen until Tuesday!

I would say "typical" but I'm trying to live up to my resolution of liking myself more, so I'm trying not to denigrate the work I did organizing the unit just because it wasn't the most pressing thing on my plate. That good work stands on its own as good.

It's just not what's staring me in the face tomorrow. I'm not ready for tomorrow. And yet I put in work on a lot of work-related stuff this week. I stayed until 6 pm almost every day this past week. I was a good worker bee. I just work slowly, I guess. I'm learning to account for the distractions somewhat. In the past, I probably wouldn't have normally been as ready as I am for Tuesday's class.

*sigh*

Comments

[grinninfoole.livejournal.com]

Sweetie, you forget that there is enough paper work in your job for another employee working at least half time. If you do no other paper work, and simply spend all of your work hours teaching or preparing to teach, you might just barely have enough time. Don't beat yourself up because your job overworks you. Beat up the job.


I love you.

thanks

[millari.livejournal.com]

Even though you told me this last night, it was still heartening to see, even as I'm stressing out right now because i'm not done and i have to leave for work.

i love you too.